Cr1mson5 the Stranger


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Something On Your Mind?

Gimme Stuff!

Somebody please just exile me now.

So, I told a good friend of mine that I’d draw a picture for him to use to ask another good friend of mine to Junior Prom with. This was about a month ago. I told him I’d do my best.

Except for the fact that I frickin’ suck at drawing people I know.

And that I kept putting it off because of that, and forgetting, and getting sidetracked.

Prom is Saturday. I won’t have it done.

And I feel like a horrible person because I told him I could do it, and I just…it’s my own fault and he wanted it so badly. I’m going to apologize tomorrow, but…what if he gets mad? I mean, he probably won’t; he’s a pretty level-headed guy. But I just can’t help but wonder: what if my friends don’t depend on me anymore? I don’t depend on myself some days, either.

I just…I know it’s probably the PMS talking, and I know I’m probably just being hard on myself again. I just can’t deal with all of this stuff going on all at once and everything everybody wants me to do and all the things I have to do for school and trying to get my diet figured out.

And I’m whining again. *sigh*

Kill me.

  1. tigrislupa said: No! No killing or exiling! I know it sucks, believe me, I have been dealing with anxiety issues and depression and all sorts of lovely things, but probably the thing I hate the most is feeling like an unreliable friend. I know it sucks, well and truly, but good friends are…
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